So Mami is home and things are normal I suppose. Dad is a nut mom is a nag Johnny is cute and my boobs are nice. Tits.

It's really late almost 5 am I just wanna babble.

I've noticed lately I'm boring, I don't really DO anything but play pokemon and draw. I've been trying to get out of the house like to the coffee shop, Jermi's, and taking sweety Duncan for walks.

Speaking of Duncan, he's doing a lot better.

Johnny n I went on a date Saturday :loved: it was very nice. We went to DQ and sat in a parking lot eating ice cream...and saw DQ Julie XD . After that we went and watched Wall-E , it was the cutest damn movie ever. I loves my Johnny. After that we ninja'd to Jermi's doorstep and had some noms. It was a very pleasant day.

So I'm full of PMS lately. It's annoying, everything gets on my nerves. D:
It's been raining lots lately, it's nice but kind of annoying. When it rains it pours here.

So I'm doing a wonderful job at wasting my summer, go me. I have yet to do anything really productive, I might not even DO anything productive this entire summer though.

My boobies hurt man



Stupid Quotes


Dad: "Are these inside shorts, or outside shorts?"

Dad: "It's chicken water."

Dad: " They need to let that kid play in the dirt and the water"

Pickles: "Let's just get snakes, they're the biggest worms out there."

Charles: "I'm sure they already have snakes, it's the amazon."

Pickles: "There ya go penny pinchin' again.

Nathan: "Go brush your teeth man..."

Murder Face: " Why would I brush my teeth in a library, that's ridiculous."

The week has been awkward without Mami, I really miss her. We've gone out to see a friend a couple times this week and went to my favorite spot in town, the coffee shop. I've done my best to keep the house clean. Today my mom starts her 8 hour journey home.

The day before yesterday I noticed Duncan had a bloody peepee D: so I called the vet and we went in so he could check it out yesterday. It was really busy so we sat there for an hour n a half before we finally got to go in to see him but he's treating him for a bladder infection. He also stuck a finger up the poor little guys pooper U.U poor Dunc.

My dad didn't give Duncan his pills this morning so I guess I have to do those by myself from now on. How the hell is he supposed to get better if you don't give him his pills? Whatever, I'll take care of my little man all by myself.

Last night was the first night Duncan slept with us again since he jumped off the bunk bed.

And Shotzie just ran outside and puked up a nice sunny yellow in the yard

I'm tired still =.=



Stupid Quotes


Dad: "Are these inside shorts, or outside shorts?"

Dad: "It's chicken water."

Dad: " They need to let that kid play in the dirt and the water"

Pickles: "Let's just get snakes, they're the biggest worms out there."

Charles: "I'm sure they already have snakes, it's the amazon."

Pickles: "There ya go penny pinchin' again.

Nathan: "Go brush your teeth man..."

Murder Face: " Why would I brush my teeth in a library, that's ridiculous."

So my mom is heading off to Vermont, she'll be gone for 5 days I misses her already.
My dad is going up Tue. or Wed. I don't know but Johnny n I will have the house to ourselves for 3 days

Beau Beau will be lost without his momma XD, it's cool though he can chillax with me.

I'll see about hooking my tablet up to my mom's computer because she had to take my laptop for an assignment they have to do for graduation. Pfft I miss my lappy. Johnny and I will be lost without it, maybe it'll keep us off the computer more though hurrr.

I can't think of anything else to bitch about, ): I'm lonely without Mami.



Stupid Quotes


Dad: "Are these inside shorts, or outside shorts?"

Dad: "It's chicken water."

Dad: " They need to let that kid play in the dirt and the water"

Pickles: "Let's just get snakes, they're the biggest worms out there."

Charles: "I'm sure they already have snakes, it's the amazon."

Pickles: "There ya go penny pinchin' again.

Nathan: "Go brush your teeth man..."

Murder Face: " Why would I brush my teeth in a library, that's ridiculous."

No matter what's happened up to now everything is still the same. The years that have gone by drag out so slow, my dad's an alcoholic and has always been an alcoholic. Ever since I was little, as little as I can remember at least, he would always get drunk and get angry about something. He always used to pick fights with my mom, she's strong and takes no shit from anyone but I remember a couple times he had left marks. It pisses me off to think that all this time it's still the same, only worse. For the past year my mom and I watched him go down hill in to a frenzy of paranoia. We've done everything we could but nothing we do will ever help him. I watched my dad slowly disappear and die inside a shell of a mad man.

My mom's threatened divorce and even signed the papers but she never goes through with it, I find it rather selfish honestly. Here we are living in absolute hell because he's a psycho and she ignores the obvious dangers and threats. I'm not sure what it would actually take to get them apart, at this point I'm thinking nothing ever will. How romantic, she's in love with a psycho. So through the years all this stress and bullshit had me going through hell in school and at home. So eventually after 8th grade I got on medication for depression and anxiety, then I started online schooling. Okay so the school part had improved but I was still stuck with someone who sometimes reminded me of Charles Manson. I've given up on my dad so I can focus on myself and keeping us safe since my mom seems to think he wouldn't take one of the four shotguns and put bullets through our heads while we sleep. Well hell, how many times has he threatened her with a shotgun? I don't know but goddamnit if I could have seen it I would have ripped his throat out.

So then he tries to be my goddamn friend and buy my love by giving me a credit card. I was pissed because he never talked to my mom about it and I was 15 probably 14 at the time. Eventually when they were fighting I told my mom about the credit card so she'd get even more pissed off. That failed, I still had the card and they were still together.

Even after we moved out and tried to get away he still ended up in our lives. He shoved his way through and eventually my mom welcomed him with open arms. Or had him committed to the Warren General Hospital because he's a nut. That only happened twice and he just comes back home every time with the same shit, some anti-psychotics and advice to stop drinking. Well shit, guess what he doesn't take and doesn't listen to?

So even though he talks like the essence of crazy he's still around. He covered the cable box with tin foil because "they" were using it to watch him. He's ripped wires out of his truck multiple times because "they're" tracking him, he even went as far as buying something online to hook up to his truck so he could see what "they" were up to. My dad and technology don't work and what he bought required a laptop so he never did get it figured out. So "they" apparently tap our phones and track us with our cell phones, not to mention everyone we know seems to be in on it. He says he doesn't trust my mom and he knows what she's doing to him, same shit with my sister and whatnot. Hell, even recently he went as far as ripping his own tooth out. I'm not sure why really, he tried to give it to my sister saying " A tooth for a tooth" since he had accidentally chipped hers when they were messing around when she was 15 (on another note, she's 27 now ). So there's that and he broke his cell phone and my moms because "they" were tracking it. Even after all that she allows him to manipulate her. She says she loves him, but the man she loves is gone. Yet she stays with him and the bullshit builds and causes us to stress and stress until we need an increase on our medicine.

So I'm almost 16, if I survive this for two more years I can get out. If I can just focus on me until then and survive his fits of psycho I can escape, and hopefully drag my mother out with me. For some reason all this has cause me to mature beyond my years in some ways, and because of that I don't really fit in with my age group. So I have one friend my own age and everyone else is at least 3 years older than me. Even though as I say "everyone else" it refers to a total of perhaps 2 people. So I'm not all alone in this world, but damn sometimes it feels that way. Crazy face makes me not want to look at anyone or get close to anyone because I fear I'll lose them like I lost him.

I know it's a mental illness and it seems cold hearted of me to refer to my own dad in an ill manner but this just isn't my dad anymore. I love my dad, I miss my dad but this guy isn't him. I've always had an interest in psychology and I've read quite a bit on it so I know there's nobody to blame for this but I want so bad to blame him. I guess sometimes I do though I shouldn't, it's sad how sick he is. We've had him in hospitals, we've tried to look at things his way and find out if someone maybe is following him, we've tried just letting it go, we've tried nagging, we've tried crying, but if I didn't have something to hide I would have called the police and gotten out of here some time ago.



Stupid Quotes


Dad: "Are these inside shorts, or outside shorts?"

Dad: "It's chicken water."

Dad: " They need to let that kid play in the dirt and the water"

Pickles: "Let's just get snakes, they're the biggest worms out there."

Charles: "I'm sure they already have snakes, it's the amazon."

Pickles: "There ya go penny pinchin' again.

Nathan: "Go brush your teeth man..."

Murder Face: " Why would I brush my teeth in a library, that's ridiculous."

Trying out a new journal CSS. Deno if I like it or not yet, so whatever. Been trying to draw more but something always screws up.

My parents are getting divorced, it's more believable this time since my dad went ape shit and ripped his front tooth out and tried to give it to my sister.

He's so psychotic he kept screaming "A TOOTH FOR A TOOTH" cos he accidentally chipped hers when she was 15...she's 27 now.

When they were driving out to our other house where two relatives of his live for the moment, they must have had someone else there because someone tried to pull out as they saw my mom's car and my dad made her stop. He got out and stopped the other car and started telling them that he knows what they're up to and who they are and that they work for them all psycho like.

So yeah, my dad is psycho. We have plans to move to Indiana near my brother.

Other than the usual life is dull and boring.

Except we're job hunting again ):





Stupid Quotes


Dad: "Are these inside shorts, or outside shorts?"

Dad: "It's chicken water."

Dad: " They need to let that kid play in the dirt and the water"

Pickles: "Let's just get snakes, they're the biggest worms out there."

Charles: "I'm sure they already have snakes, it's the amazon."

Pickles: "There ya go penny pinchin' again.

Nathan: "Go brush your teeth man..."

Murder Face: " Why would I brush my teeth in a library, that's ridiculous."